’m so unhappy. I’m literally on the verge of tears right now. All my friends are starting senior year tomorrow and I just wish that I was one of them. I want to go to homecoming and the football games. I want to still be in high school. I want to go to prom. I miss having a social life. I see all these pictures and so many people I know seem so happy and I am doing nothing with my life. I tested out of highschool. It was because they told me I wouldn’t be able to graduate. It wasn’t because I wanted to start college.
Right now I’m living in Alaska. Thousands of miles away from everyone I care about. I was supposed to start college yesterday. I had my classes, I had my ID, I was prepared. But now I had to drop out because we couldn’t afford it. I don’t have a job, I have no friends here. I am sitting home doing nothing with my life. I am so depressed. All my friends are moving on, they’ll forget about me. I would too. I just want my life back. Just a few months ago I was so happy. Now I’m left with nothing. I am so sick of sitting here and doing nothing with my life. I can’t even pretend that I’m happy anymore. I can’t even lie to myself anymore.
I don’t even know how to end this, but I really needed to get this out because I have no one else to talk to.